Raskolnikov said, ".. and their are men so stark, so gigantic, such Titans of Myth, these are men who are like gigantic, craggy mountains.. that they etch out.. like with a grey eraser used on sketching paper.. these men with their virile, pathologically self-sacrificing male identity.. they etch out.. they erase like with a grey erase on sketching paper.. they erase all female identity from the face of the earth.. from the face of reality.. and little girls are simply.. erased from existence.. so that the souls of these little girls had never existed.. to begin with.. to begin with.. and these pathologically self-sacrificing, pathologically vainglorious men, so seeking of the image of their own stark crucifixion and so seeking of their own vulnerable, relentless male vanity.. these great men.. these great male Titans.. they may very well feel sad that .. what..?.. these young girls.. our masculinity was so virile.. that it .. not even snuffed out .. these young girls their souls weren't even candles or candle-flames.. they were merely finished portraits and refined sketches of girls on a sketch-board.. now erased thoroughly erased with a grey eraser.. by the force of our self-sacrificing, pathologically self-sacrificing self-crucifying masculinity.. and the image of Christ Crucified is something quite different.. that is a real image of a man who has suffered greatly.. but these Great Men, these Great Titans.. the image of their self-sacrifice is rather something.. vainglorious.. "
Diana was nude in the shower and the shower was like an old, rusty tea-kettle from out of which came pleasantly grainy and warm dirty soiled-warm dollops of warm and well-heated even mildly scorching water and full resources of water came out of the grey metal tea-kettle shower under which the nude Diana bathed in great but relative privacy.. for Diana always kept her privacy when she was nude she kept it a state of relative privacy her nude state with Raskolnikov.. it was so relative because of the sheer physical and emotional pain of Raskolnikov's speech just now.. as Raskolnikov spoke of these great, painfully vulnerable men at length to Diana when she was nude and she felt she HAD to be nude when Raskolnikov talked to her of the horrific, stark, craggy vulnerability of these pathologically self-sacrificing men, and it was always.. it was always, relentlessly that Raskolnikov spoke to her of these men..
Raskolnikov continued, ".. and the most elegiac, angelic woman.. the most exotically angelic women.. their identities are entirely erased as if they never even existed by such men.. by these men so Great that they utterly nullify all women all these exotically angelic women out of existence so that they these women never were never existed to begin with.. and teh little girls never existed to begin with either.. teh little girls will grow into little women and their souls will not actually exist in any sense whatsoever, either in the sight of God or out of the sight of God.. for the fire the self-sacrificing, vainglorious fire and stark mountains of the male identities of these Great men have erased .. not snuffed out.. nothing like that.. erased these little girls little women.. their souls much less than not having even been.. and these great, vainglorious, pathologically self-sacrificing men will feel this as a personal woe.. the loss of these little girl little women soul will be a long, personal woe that will last for the whole lives, even if these Great men live thousands of years, they will never lose teh sense of personal woe of these little girls little women's souls lost forever.. it will haunt them all their lives..."...
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