.. Ned Leeds, played by Hanno Ridal Raudsepp: ..".. I've lived the real life.. I never had inflicted on me that Gary Oldman William Hurt Johnny Depp James Cagney moronic garbage about Hollywood actors who insist almost angrily that they never become the people they play.. that Hollywood actor filth never even touched me.. it never.. reached me.. as it has others and thus butchered their lives.. the assholeishness about forcing teenagers to write thank you cards.. all that Mafia enforcement of Thank You Card obligations upon innocent, vulnerable teenagers.. all that thank you card assholeishness from the like of Ann Landers and from mothers and their colluding daughters.. the sisters of their young male teenage innocent victims.. all of that never happened to me in my life.. I've been a very, very, very lucky young man all my life because no one in my whole life has ever talked to me about Thank You cards and I've never sent one in my life or been told I had any such obligation.. I regularly see Movies on Wide Huge Imax screens and draw my inspiration for living thereby.. I got my first job at the Daily Bugle when I was still going to high school.. so.. I've had an apocalyptically lucky life.. and.. the razors edge of thrilling apocalypse danger has always been the marrow of my soul and consciousness.. My life is the Undiscoverd Country and whereas Hamlet had a deeply, deeply, horrifically unhappy life I've had a very happy life and I understand what William Blake says about being thankful for such a life.. I just turned forty and.. it is the Undiscovered Country of the Future for me.. and.. and.. ".. three dollars.. stochastic disturbance terms.. issue eight twenty three paul dini / joe benitez poison ivy pamela isley kate moss megan d. iseult.. stochastic disturbance terms.. three dollars..